The house stood majestically at the end of a row of cottages. Yes, cottages in Orange County. I didn’t even know such a community existed until our realtor walked us through the English-inspired streets. We toured a few homes, but one caught JD’s eye and though we stopped to examine the beautiful landscaping, we noticed it was vacant and a padlock rested on the front knob. Through the front windows I saw hardwood floors, French doors, and the mother of all staircases…it was then when I asked JD for CPR because I couldn’t breathe.

We opened the side gate and ventured into the backyard and sat in the shade of the grapevine-covered veranda. It was then when I pointed to my lips and asked JD for CPR again. Breathing becomes laborious when you find something you love.

I begged the agent to work some magic and offer a bid before the house officially hit the market and the price skyrocketed. So she offered.

Last night, I received a phone call from the broker stating we weren’t the only people who saw the padlock and made a quiet offer. We, however, were entirely misaligned with our offer. Like North and South Pole off. Summer and Winter off. Left and Right off. I felt like the broker tossed me a dime and pinched my cheek. Here ya go, sweetie…go buy yourself a bottle of pop! Apparently, JD and I are kids in the Orange County real estate market.

I woke this morning in a total funk. I’m usually an upbeat and happy person, but today I was as exciting as wet socks. In Winter.

I debated posting this entry (there have been MANY posts that have never seen the light of day), but I want to remember how I’m feeling at this very moment. A little sad, a lot frustrated, and a sprinkle of blech. I don’t seem to have a hard time blogging about the good and happy, but when it comes to the aches, I want to hide them. Tuck them away in a dark corner until I can control their mangled arms. But today I’m blogging the Real in hopes that when our new home buying day arrives, I’ll look back and be extra thankful. To remember how blech feels and to know—just like most things in life—it was worth the wait.

And, really, how can I be THAT bummed when I have this face staring back at me?!?

**EDITED TO ADD**
Friends, thank you SO much for all your kind words of encouragement!! Today is brighter and I'm back at feeling hopeful…with many thanks to you! I appreciate y'all rockin' my world! 🙂