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Afraid to Un-Dream
12.30.10  
- Personal

I
wish I was better keeping a journal. I do, however, have a book that surfaces when I travel. A small, paperbound book filled with thick paper and my penmanship dresses quite a few pages. JD's too. Our travelogue, of sorts. I opened it a few nights ago by chance and came across a post from New Year's 2010, almost a year ago to the day. The entry chronicles life as it was in New Zealand, and the predicts how we'd ring in the New Year. It also had a list of goals. As I read back through the entry, I laughed.

JD is sitting in the other room with Polo right now. The house is freezing, I should probably turn on the heater. But I look back at the book.

This year appeared nothing like I imagined it would. My goals--as sincere as they were at the time--missed a major component: Dreaming. On the list were items I'd feel great to scratch off and think to myself Look! What! I! Accomplished! But none of them dared me to fail at something. Thankfully, opportunities came my way to remind me the value of risk, but I'm disappointed I didn't challenge myself before. To be honest, I was afraid.

A few nights ago, I sat down with that book and created a list of goals for 2011 and made sure I was afraid. Afraid to un-dream. Because one thing I've learned this past year is in the darkness of dreams, strength is revealed and passion takes flight...




My dreams and goals will stay privately tucked away in this book for a while, but I hope one day I can look back and be satisfied with daring to dream and failing. Or, better yet, succeeding.














2013

Jan   21
Feb   19
Mar   19
Apr   22
May   13
Jun
Jul
Aug
Sep
Oct
Nov
Dec

2012

Jan   22
Feb   19
Mar   22
Apr   22
May   22
Jun   20
Jul   20
Aug   22
Sep   19
Oct   23
Nov   20
Dec   20

2011

Jan   22
Feb   19
Mar   24
Apr   21
May   21
Jun   22
Jul   20
Aug   23
Sep   22
Oct   20
Nov   22
Dec   21

2010

Jan   24
Feb   20
Mar   22
Apr   21
May   22
Jun   20
Jul   25
Aug   24
Sep   22
Oct   21
Nov   21
Dec   23

2009

Jan   23
Feb   21
Mar   24
Apr   22
May   21
Jun   23
Jul   23
Aug   20
Sep   22
Oct   18
Nov   24
Dec   19

2008

Jan   22
Feb   23
Mar   25
Apr   22
May   24
Jun   22
Jul   23
Aug   19
Sep   22
Oct   21
Nov   20
Dec   22

2007

Jan
Feb
Mar
Apr   3
May   19
Jun   19
Jul   21
Aug   20
Sep   21
Oct   21
Nov   24
Dec   23


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