10.28.08 Personal

Hopeful

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t’s a little late. I hear Jimmy Kimmel orating his evening monologue from the living room and—though I’m in another room—I know Polo and JD are laying on the sofa. I’m editing last Saturday’s wedding and as the night creeps forward, I can’t sleep.

In a few hours, my mother will be having surgery and staying in the hospital for a couple days. Later today, we’ll find out whether the lump in my mom’s throat is cancerous. And though I feel worried, I’m also faithful. I believe everything will be okay. And I believe this for no other reason than I must or else my hope slowly chips away.

I’ll be spending most of the day at the hospital with my family, but I’ll update as soon as I have details. For those of you who’ve written and spread a little support and love, thank you. Trying to balance work, life, and hope is difficult, but I appreciate your time and outpouring of kindness. It makes me feel so warm and fuzzy! ;)


**EDITED TO ADD**
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. I spent most of the day with my mother and though she was unresponsive, the nurses promised she was doing well. I spoke with my mom this morning and she seems in happy spirits, so that's awesome! We find out the results from the surgery on Monday, but I just wanted to express how thankful I am for making me feel less alone. Seriously, thank you.
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Samantha - Hello Jasmine, You don't know me but I'm a photographer from New York and I follow your blog and website because its just so darn beautiful. I wanted to express to you that I just went through a similar experience when my mother found out she had oral cancer and they had to remove a section of her tongue. She has had breast cancer twice before, but this was much more invasive. I traveled downstate 6 hours to be with her for two weeks while she was in the hospital and recouping. I just wanted to let you know that even though I was worried and scared for her, the surgery went well and she's back being her spunky self. I just thought that an inspirational story of a similar nature might help when those sleepless moments come about.   11.02.08 - 9:55pm
julia and jason - we're praying for your mom and your family.  11.01.08 - 9:01am
Lawrence @ Furious Photographers - I hope all goes well :) Be strong!  10.31.08 - 2:04pm
Lisa Love O'Connor - Jasmine - My heartfelt prayers are with your Mom and your family.  10.31.08 - 10:48am
Cicilia - Your mom is in my prayer. I wish you and family all the best.   10.30.08 - 8:27pm
cassandra m - Jasmine's Mom...Many prayers are still with you. Many "good" thoughts are coming your way for you and your family. much love to you!  10.30.08 - 6:30pm
jasmine's mom - I am forever thankful to all of you who have covered me with prayer. I am feeling very well at this moment. This coming Monday the doctors will let me know the results. I wish I can hug and kiss every single one of you. When I hug Jasmine I'll imagine I'm hugging all of you. Love you all!!!!  10.30.08 - 12:45pm
tracy anne - my grandmother-in-law was just diagnosed with throat cancer last night. at 80 some years old there's not a lot they can do for her... and then i thought about your mom and i prayed for your family to get good news on monday.  10.30.08 - 9:57am
Cathy Crawley - Thinking of you and your family :) xxx  10.30.08 - 5:10am
Apple - Just stay strong Jasmine! and don't lose faith! *lots of hugs and prayers!:)  10.30.08 - 12:02am
Lauren - Good luck Jasmine*, i'll be thinking of you and your mum. xx  10.29.08 - 10:46pm
SamTheMan - Hi Jasmine, Keep us posted and know that we're praying for you. Here's a big ole' virtual hug from Chicago.  10.29.08 - 8:33pm
Jackie Jones - I hope this helps a little... "She believed she could so she did". This powerful saying is framed on a table in my office. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mom. I'm a blog follower from Tn.  10.29.08 - 8:19pm
Naomi - Hi Jasmine, Id just like to say that your blog is fantastic, Ive gone through the past few months {is that stalking}and you can really get an idea of what your made of. Bless you and your family. Good luck.  10.29.08 - 6:48pm
nicole green - i'm a little late on this but i just wanted to let you know you and your family has been in my thoughts! so glad to hear your mom is in good spirits!  10.29.08 - 5:16pm
ohana photograpers - praying for your mom and your family jasmine.  10.29.08 - 2:01pm
Melanie - Hi Jasmine, I will say a prayer that everything goes well and that you all get good news on Monday.  10.29.08 - 1:52pm
Heather/OneShotBeyond - Been thinking of you since I first read this. It's good that you're hopeful. Take deep breaths when you need to and other than that all you can do is keep faith.   10.29.08 - 10:39am
Korey - Oh Jasmine...I will pray. I wish I had something better to tell you, but times like these can't be explained away.  10.29.08 - 9:35am
Joan Solitario - Regarding your "EDITED TO ADD" - That's wonderful news! I hope for fast recovery for her and hope for the best for you and your family.  10.29.08 - 9:33am
K. Holly - Sending prayers for your mom, as well as you and your family today. Hang in there, you're strong and so is she!  10.29.08 - 9:03am
ashley b - still praying..........  10.29.08 - 9:00am
Rachel - I am thinking of you and your family today. I don't know you personally although I know how I would feel if it were my mom. All the best.   10.29.08 - 8:46am
Cyn ~ - We are praying and believing in the God of Abraham, Issac & Jacob  10.29.08 - 7:27am
AprilW - I will be praying for your family today.  10.29.08 - 7:19am
Kelly | Purple Lemon Designs - My thoughts and prayers are with you, J*, and your family. God is with your mother always.  10.29.08 - 6:28am
Whitney Gray - I'm praying for healing, strength and peace!   10.29.08 - 6:17am
Jenn Regruth - Hang in there. My thoughts and prayers are with you.  10.29.08 - 3:38am
Carl Reid [uh-tacht] - Stay strong...I'll pray.  10.29.08 - 3:03am
terri Z - many thoughts and prayers for you and your family ...  10.29.08 - 2:36am
rowena - I'll be praying.  10.29.08 - 1:04am
Val McCormick Photography - Jasmine, I pray that the Lord give you and your family strength to get through these tormentous waiting hours, that he guide the surgeons hands during the surgery but most of all that the Lord lay his healing hands on you mother. In Jesus Name...Amen ~Hugs~ Val  10.29.08 - 12:37am
Lydia - Praying for you all!  10.28.08 - 11:43pm
marlene - God is in control :) I know he will take care of your mom and your family!  10.28.08 - 10:47pm
Abayomi - For he promise to not leave you nor 4sake you, he will keep his promise  10.28.08 - 9:15pm
Jessica - Prayers for good results! We just went through the exact same process with my mom and breast cancer, and I pray you get the same great results we did!   10.28.08 - 9:12pm
Michelle - I am hopeful too ... hang in there, Jasmine!  10.28.08 - 9:03pm
Holli True - Hoping & praying for the best, Jasmine!   10.28.08 - 8:47pm
Alejandra - Add me to the group of people who is praying for your family.  10.28.08 - 8:13pm
Melody Carpenter - Praying for you and your family right now...  10.28.08 - 7:34pm
daria bishop - oxo from vermont!  10.28.08 - 7:29pm
b - lots of love and hope your way...  10.28.08 - 7:23pm
Shelley Forsberg - My thoughts are with you and your family.  10.28.08 - 7:23pm
Michelle Henrick - Thinking of you..Prayers to your mom and your entire family <3  10.28.08 - 7:17pm
Sissel - This all rests with God. You just give it to him and everyone will continue to pray. That is the very best place you can be.   10.28.08 - 7:17pm
Candice and Daniel - Praying all went well for your mom today...  10.28.08 - 6:50pm
lauren - prayers to you & your family, jasmine. *  10.28.08 - 6:47pm
todd scott ballje - hey jasmine i can very much relate as my dad has fought cancer for the last 15 years. you are so right to continue to depend on God and your family and friends. There is no thought or way that will ever replace the core values of our lives. And as you Im sure already hear and know, you will never regret missing a few moments of work, but may regret missing a few moments with your family. Cherish it! best wishes to your mom! / todd  10.28.08 - 5:58pm
Lissy - I just got on my knees and said a prayer in Spanish (since it's my 1st language)- I just know you mom is going to be all right. Hang in there J*  10.28.08 - 5:30pm
Araxi - Lots of prayers for you and your family.   10.28.08 - 5:28pm
Kathrina - I hope for the best for you and your family. You'll all be in my prayers and thoughts. Stay strong and know that there are so very many people who are in your corner. Blessings.  10.28.08 - 4:49pm
Abra - My thoughts are with you. I hope all turns out for the best. If not, remember that God will not give you anything that you can't handle. You are strong and can make it through anything. The hardest thing is the waiting.  10.28.08 - 4:39pm
Trina Knudsen - Jasmine - I pray that you and your family will be blessed with peace and comfort during this time of unknowns. I work as a nurse at Huntsman Cancer Hospital in SLC, UT. No matter the outcome, your mother is blessed tremendously because of your love and support for her.   10.28.08 - 4:37pm
kimberly jane - sending so much healing loving energy to your mom, you and your family!  10.28.08 - 4:31pm
Karin Dailey - We all love you, Jasmine! And your family!   10.28.08 - 4:18pm
tracy smith - Saying a prayer for your family...  10.28.08 - 4:08pm
Mike Paterson - My wife and I have been, and will continue to be praying for your mom, you, and the rest of your family.  10.28.08 - 3:56pm
Michelle - I will be praying for you and your family. Keeping you in my thoughts.  10.28.08 - 3:53pm
nikki mcleod - hugs...... from scotland  10.28.08 - 3:33pm
brooke bowland - my thoughts are with you today. stay strong!  10.28.08 - 3:33pm
Trista - I'll be hoping and praying for the best!   10.28.08 - 3:16pm
Sarah-Jane - Hey Jasmine. You and Your family are in my prayers! Just remember how great and powerful OUR God is! Isaiah 40:28-29.  10.28.08 - 3:03pm
Stephanie Elkins/Pazzulla - My prayers are with you and your family.  10.28.08 - 2:42pm
Liza - I will definitely be praying for the best! I know how that it is...to wait. The best thing right now is to truly be hopeful and to be filled with faith that God will provide to your best interest at hand. God Bless!  10.28.08 - 2:29pm
Amanda Key - Your mom will be in my thoughts and prayers.  10.28.08 - 2:26pm
Jackie L. - My thoughts are with you as well! Stay hopeful!  10.28.08 - 2:18pm
Jamie Borden - Love, prayers, and positive vibes from Jared and I to you and yours!   10.28.08 - 2:18pm
Ginger Murray - Warm and fuzzies are necessary to pass on when life can be such a pill sometimes!  10.28.08 - 2:16pm
Larry Reeves - Hope everything goes well!  10.28.08 - 2:09pm
Kristin - Best wishes and many prayers your way.  10.28.08 - 2:00pm
Cheryl Cronin - Hey Jasmine, I'm sending you all sorts of positive, hopeful, loving, and supportive energy!   10.28.08 - 1:30pm
Charise - My thoughts and prayers are with you and you family Jasmine! May today bring you nothing but good news.  10.28.08 - 1:26pm
Penny Noell - My thoughts and prayers are with you and your Mom.   10.28.08 - 12:45pm
Ali - Hello. I am a big fan of your work and have been checking your blog for a while now. I love photography. When I read your most recent post, I had to write and let you know that I will be praying for you and your family! I am sure you are a wonderful, warm, and loving influence on everyone around you. May peace be with you and God Bless!  10.28.08 - 12:43pm
Vanessabrooke.net - I'm praying for you and your family. My aunt is battling stage 4 cancer right now - and I know that love and supposrt is the best energy you can give someone. It helps.  10.28.08 - 12:22pm
Amber Paterson - We'll be praying for you guys  10.28.08 - 12:06pm
jeramy - praying for your mom.  10.28.08 - 11:32am
Ashley Rose - Hi Jasmine, Crazy Market Lady here... :) I am praying extra hard today for you family. Jasmine you radiate warm and goodness and I know god is watching over your family today!   10.28.08 - 11:24am
carrie - sending you many, many hugs. much love -c.  10.28.08 - 11:20am
JJ - My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family :)  10.28.08 - 11:19am
Ashley - My thoughts are with you Jasmine! Everything will turn out okay in the end.   10.28.08 - 10:55am
Alan Nielsen - My thoughts and prayers are with you too...  10.28.08 - 10:46am
Lucy - Your mom and family are in my prayers today.   10.28.08 - 10:35am
joyful weddings and events - praying for you girl!  10.28.08 - 10:28am
Linda - Jasmine, I too will be praying for you throughout the day. Trust in the Lord with all your heart...  10.28.08 - 10:20am
Melissa - My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family sweetheart!  10.28.08 - 10:16am
scott - You and your family are in my thoughts. You're such a good person!  10.28.08 - 10:07am
Adrienne - My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mother. With high hopes and your positive outlook, everything will turn out fine! :)  10.28.08 - 10:07am
jen berry - thinking of your family and you.   10.28.08 - 10:06am
Ashley - I too believe everything will be okay. Our prayers will be with you today.  10.28.08 - 9:59am
Alicia - Many, many prayers are with you and your family today Jas. Keep the faith. xoxo  10.28.08 - 9:51am
Rene Skrodzki - My thoughts and prayers also go out to you. Your faith is important, use it to guide you through.  10.28.08 - 9:43am
Yvonne L - Our prayers are with your family and I'll send a little extra hoe your way just in case.  10.28.08 - 9:35am
Catie R - Thoughts and prayers for your mom, you and your family. Hugs.   10.28.08 - 9:33am
Fishgirl - Thinking and praying for your mom and for you, I pray to God he'll give you peace inyour heart!!GBY..  10.28.08 - 9:25am
angel swanson - i'm praying for your mom & your family today. lean on God's perfect will; He is in control. ;-) i love you! xoxo  10.28.08 - 9:20am
Shannon McFarland - Hey Jasmine, You & your family will continue to be in my thoughts & prayers. I hope everything goes good today. Much Love, Many Blessings, & TONS of laughs!!! ;) Shannon   10.28.08 - 9:15am
joshua k - Dear Jasmine, I will be praying for you,your mon & family too,God is listening now. Stay strong !Hugs!  10.28.08 - 9:09am
Rylee Sundquist - May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. (Romans 15:13) Claim it! Even in the shadows of despair, or the bright lights of an operating room, you and your mother can overflow with joy, peace and hope.   10.28.08 - 9:04am
Emily Mason - It's so wonderful that you have faith=) I will be praying for your family today.  10.28.08 - 8:56am
Anne Nunn Photography - You have a wonderful perspective. As a mommie who lost her identical twin boys at birth, I know it is hard to keep that perspective, but the first step is confessing it and laying all your cares on Jesus...for he cares for us. I will pray for you today.   10.28.08 - 8:51am
Feuza - There is a powerful verse in the Bible about hope, it states that an old trunk of a tree though cut, dry seems there is no life in it, but at the smell of waters, there is hope for it to live again. I will keep you in my prayers.  10.28.08 - 8:49am
Roxie - Stay strong Jasmine*! Your thoughts are in my prayers and I hope for nothing but the best for you and your beautiful family. God Bless!  10.28.08 - 8:45am
Ariana W. - I will keep your Mom in Prayer and I just pray peace, love, joy and healing over her in this difficult time!!! And I come into agreement that she will overcome this!! God Bless Ariana W  10.28.08 - 8:45am
Ginette - Usually a blog "lurker"for your blog.....but I had to comment today to tell you that I am praying for your mom and your family. God is good. You seem amazingly strong. Your mom is so lucky to have a daughter like you.  10.28.08 - 8:35am
nancye - still praying...   10.28.08 - 8:21am
Regina White - Jas praying for you and family. **HUGS**  10.28.08 - 8:17am
Paula Herko - Jasmine and Family: I am praying for your mom today. I am praying for the whole family to have peace and for the doctor's to have steady hands and minds as they operate on your mom. God is good... and faithful!  10.28.08 - 8:14am
Nelly Chung - I will keep your mom in my prayers. Have a good day.  10.28.08 - 8:06am
Heather Perdue - Weber and I will keep you and your family in our prayers. God bless!  10.28.08 - 8:03am
Joan Solitario - It is during times when we are weak that we realize that we are strong. God bless and I hope everything goes well for you and your family!  10.28.08 - 7:45am
Jo-Anne Kyle - Thoughts and prayers are with you and your family today and always.  10.28.08 - 7:41am
Leah Charbonneau - Thoughts and prayers with you today! Don't let go of the hope. It's hard to hold on to but it does wonders. Positive vibes to your family today!  10.28.08 - 7:37am
Kyle - Best of luck, Jasmine's mom! Sending lots of "fuerzas," to the whole family from Chile!!!  10.28.08 - 7:32am
Lindsay Kipp Photography - Good luck with your mom, I truly believe everything will work out like it's supposed to, and she will be fine. Keep up your beautiful spirit and know we all love you and are praying for your family!  10.28.08 - 7:32am
Dawn - Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. God bless...  10.28.08 - 7:30am
KTBee - Good luck today! You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. :) I hope the upcoming days and weeks bring you what you are looking for in an answer. Much peace to you and your family.  10.28.08 - 7:25am
Mark Chambers - Our prayers are with you and we hope that it will all be good news. God Bless.  10.28.08 - 7:23am
Rich and Alyssa - We're thinking about you guys!!! Best wishes...  10.28.08 - 7:17am
Joyce - We'll be praying for your and your family. God is faithful and He will do the miracle!!  10.28.08 - 7:16am
Yuka photo art - I thinking about your mother....everything will be good!!!  10.28.08 - 7:12am
Susan Solo - I definitely have your family in my thoughts today and am hoping for the best news! Sending love all the way from the east coast!  10.28.08 - 6:59am
Erin - Good luck. We are rooting for your mom to be okay.  10.28.08 - 6:58am
Jim - My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mom and the rest of your family. "Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart, all ye that hope in the LORD. " Psalm 31:24  10.28.08 - 6:50am
ksen :) - my thoughts, heart & prayers are with you, your Mom & family. i, too, have hope & faith that everything is going to be okay. :)  10.28.08 - 6:50am
tish - May His peace guard your heart and mind today  10.28.08 - 6:37am
Oakstream Photography - Oh Jasmine I wish you all the best of luck. I will say a prayer for you & your mom. God bless!!!  10.28.08 - 6:34am
Stephanie - My prayers are with you!   10.28.08 - 6:28am
Michelle Jones - Hugs to both you and your mum, I hope she is fine, in fact I'm sure she'll be fine, she's young, fit and has you for a daughter. She'll be fine :)  10.28.08 - 6:20am
Tira J & David - So many prayers on their way for sweet Millie. Our God is a faithful and a hopeful God and he will take care of your Mom every step of the way. We love you and your entire family Jasmine.   10.28.08 - 6:14am
Julie L. - Many many prayers to your mom and your family Jasmine. God Bless!  10.28.08 - 6:09am
Jessica Lynn - thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, Jasmine. You are such a talented photographer who has touched the lives of so many through your work. You have so many friends/followers that are keeping your Mom in their thoughts today....she is a lucky lady.   10.28.08 - 6:00am
Bernadette - I'll be thinking and praying for you and your family today. Hugs!   10.28.08 - 5:59am
Melissa - Thinking of you and your mother!  10.28.08 - 5:46am
Camille Elise - My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Stay faithful.  10.28.08 - 5:10am
Amanda Reed - many prayers  10.28.08 - 5:08am
Alisha - lots of prayers (warm and fuzzy ones) headed your way!  10.28.08 - 4:53am
jessica @ budgetsavvybride - prayers and love and hope for you, your mom, and your family.   10.28.08 - 4:36am
Bertie - I'll be thinking of your mom today, Jasmine. Many hugs to her, you and your family.  10.28.08 - 4:32am
Amy Neeson - Thinking of you & your family...  10.28.08 - 3:47am
Gina S. - My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mother. (((sending you good vibes)))  10.28.08 - 3:29am
Katrina James - positive energy being sent your way  10.28.08 - 3:27am
kay drenth - Just wanted to let you know I'll be praying! {{{hugs}}}  10.28.08 - 3:07am
Konfral - Fingers crossed Jasmine!  10.28.08 - 2:53am
Mindy - Prayers to your mom, you and your family...  10.28.08 - 2:50am
Natarsha N. Wright - You & Your family will be in my prayers! *HUGS & KISSES* May your mom have a speedy recovery.   10.28.08 - 2:47am
Fran - Jasmine remind yourself that your hope is strong and let all the love and good wishes you receive here strengthen it further. Lots of love and thoughts to you...  10.28.08 - 2:23am
Glenda - ((Hugs)) and prayers for you and Mama! Ü  10.28.08 - 2:01am
nattnee - i hope your mum will be ok and all this shall be in the past very soon....take care  10.28.08 - 1:58am
Funke O - With faith anything is possible....... Ur mom is a fighter and she'll come through this just like she did before.... so relax knowing our father never sleeps....  10.28.08 - 1:18am
denise karis - They say that faith is the best thing in a time like this. So much love from all of us will be going out to you and your family and your mother especially -   10.28.08 - 12:58am
Nancy Ramos - I know the feeling from personal experience. My prayers to you and your mother.  10.28.08 - 12:54am
Katie [shadowplay] - Aww... Thinking of you :)   10.28.08 - 12:48am
Alicia Brown - Many warm-fuzzy thoughts and prayers to you and yours...  10.28.08 - 12:41am
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