09.28.09 Personal

Four Years

saw it on your dresser. And it hurt me. It stared at me in the face like a mirror and reflected the darker shades of my heart. I tried not to be offended, but I was. You told me it was okay, it wasn't anything. But it was. To me. The book sprawled itself on your dresser and the title stared back at me, mocking my attempts at avoiding what was being said between the lines. "Is It Love or Obsession?" That was the name of the book your father gave you one night. We were 19 years old and madly in love.

I'm not obsessed, I said meekly into your chest as you held me tight. I felt your heart. Literally. The beating pumping in my ear. I'm in love...with you

At first I was embarrassed at what was silently floating through your parents' house and thoughts, and wanted to deny it all. But, my dearest husband, I'm writing this today to let you know that it's okay. They were right. After all these years together, I'm unabashedly obsessed with you. If I could crawl into the palm of your hand and seep through your pores, I would. That way, I'd be just as close to you as I always want to be. Obsessed in every way and any capacity with the person you are. And the person you want to be.

Today, I write this as your wife of four years. And your lover until end's end. And your best friend until sunset's sunset. And your soul mate until our very last sunrise.

JD, I am madly in love with you. Today--much like yesterday, and very much like tomorrow--I am proud to be your wife. Happy Anniversary, my love.

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Ashleigh Holloway - I love how you write about the things that are most important, but that no one writes about. This post made me cry, for real.   04.30.10 - 8:05pm
Claire Emma - ...tears in my eyes. your words are beautiful.  03.19.10 - 9:51pm
Lauren - jasmine, you're absolutely amazing, dunno how else to put it, i'm all tears right now, i hope to find what you have one day :)   10.24.09 - 10:15am
Kia Rosado - oh jasmine i love your blogs!!! this is beautiful beyond words...  10.13.09 - 2:09pm
Serendipity Photography - Super sweet!! Happy anniversary Jasmine and JD!   10.06.09 - 9:12pm
Courtney Allison - Lovely post. Love this shot!  10.06.09 - 6:19pm
karin dailey - i'm pretty sure i just cried.  10.06.09 - 6:08am
Apple - happy anniversary to the ultimate couple! <333  10.02.09 - 2:27am
Life with Kaishon - This is the sweetest, most wonderful love letter anyone could ever hope to get. Did he smile?  10.01.09 - 10:39am
Carolyn - Jasmine, when I meet the man that God has waiting for me, I hope I can be a eloquent and truthful in expressing ho I feel for him. Thank you.  10.01.09 - 10:26am
Andrew Rozell - I love the dip shot on their first dance.   10.01.09 - 9:58am
Grace Tan - Thanks for helping us see that it's ok to be obsessed - for the right reasons!   10.01.09 - 7:41am
Events by Evonne - Awww... how sweet. JD is a very lucky man!  10.01.09 - 2:32am
KrisD Mauga - So gushy, sweet! I know where you are coming from!  09.30.09 - 3:24pm
Kayla :) - Jasmine!!! I just fall in love with your writing over and over again, every time I check in on your blog, I just can't help it!! You are simply THE best - your words linger in my head, and I just want MORE! God has blessed you with many talents girl!!! <3 Thanks for sharing!!  09.30.09 - 2:10pm
Vilma Deckena - and you are publishing your first book when????>......... :)  09.30.09 - 10:50am
Chelsea Patricia - Tears  09.30.09 - 8:09am
Pinky - That was beautiful! Brought me to tears! Happy anniversary!   09.29.09 - 10:54pm
Kate - Jasmine - seriously. You are such an amazing writer. I told my husband about this post and then read it to him and got choked up! You expressed your love (and how I feel about my husband too) so beautifully! Thank you for sharing your heartfelt words with all of us - who often can't find just the right words to express what inside our hearts. Thank you!  09.29.09 - 7:27pm
Jenny - This gave me chills! Congrats on finding your soulmate! I just celebrated 3 years with mine and I feel the same way...thanks for putting such beautiful feelings into words!  09.29.09 - 6:55pm
shanni - yay for getting married on 9.28 :) oh how I love love...  09.29.09 - 4:40pm
Evelyn Perez - I felt like I was ready a Hallmark Card!!!!!!  09.29.09 - 3:59pm
Cory Lane Anderson - It's obvious you know how blessed you are to have found your perfect match....we single girls can only dream!!! Happy Anniversary!  09.29.09 - 3:22pm
Tracey Buyce - happy, happy day!  09.29.09 - 1:14pm
Alejandra Arroyo - Awww, that was so sweet of you Jasmine!! Congratulations and may you both share many many more happy years together!! You are both so blessed to have each other!!  09.29.09 - 12:58pm
Oakstream Photography - I swear you are the most creative, word savvy person I know! I love reading your blog...not only to see the UH-MAZING pictures, BUT also because I can't wait to read what you've wrote. ALWAYS sooo creative. WOW! Happy anniversary!  09.29.09 - 10:05am
Nicole C. - Awww I looove this post. Happy Anniversary :)  09.29.09 - 9:51am
Marissa Rodriguez - Happy Anniversary!!!  09.29.09 - 9:37am
Basia - I am trying nod to be jealous - it's damn hard! Love every word you write and every image you capture!  09.29.09 - 9:23am
kaitlyn johnson - Oh Jasmine, this post made me sooo happy! My parents gave me that book when I started dating Jon and I remember the upheaval it caused both of us emotionally. Well-meaning parents can be so mean sometimes. ;-D   09.29.09 - 8:48am
Katy Larson - I read your post, know what and how you feel. I've felt it almost twenty-eight years for the love of my life, congratulations on your anniversary. Wishing you many more years of love and happiness.  09.29.09 - 6:04am
Stephanie Greenwell - That was such a sweet & lovely post! I can't wait til you two have kids and we get to see your posts to them! :) (I'm not rushing you or anything!) Happy Anniversary and may God bless with many, many more!  09.29.09 - 4:53am
MelissaF - Beautiful. Congratulations and Happy Anniversary to you both!  09.29.09 - 4:12am
Anouschka - Happy Anniversary!!! Love this post, so beautiful :)  09.29.09 - 3:25am
Elsie - Now THAT is love! =) Happy Anniversary Jasmine and JD!   09.29.09 - 2:36am
Brian Khang - Happy Anniversary guys!!  09.28.09 - 11:44pm
Lin and Jirsa Photography - What poetry!!! Amazing as always.. congrats!  09.28.09 - 11:05pm
Mindy - Happy anniversary Jazzy* and JD!!! Your love and obsession for each other is an inspiration!!! I love, love, love your LOVE for each other!!! Hugs!!! Wishing you many more years of LOVE and HAPPINESS!!!  09.28.09 - 10:48pm
Ginette - Happy Anniversery! I simply love hearing about the love you two share. It is so refreshing in a world full of pain to hear about joy and love. Thank you. Wish you many many more blessed years with one another!   09.28.09 - 9:34pm
Audrey - *sniffle*  09.28.09 - 9:21pm
Brandi - Happy Anniversary Jasmine & JD. Tomorrow (today, I guess, since it's after midnight here) is actually my and my husband's second wedding anniversary..!   09.28.09 - 8:32pm
Seanny Ma - That was beautiful! Happy Anniversary! :)  09.28.09 - 8:17pm
Brian Fletcher - Happy Anniversary! My Wife and I just hit 4 years in April! :)  09.28.09 - 8:10pm
Claudia - Happy Anniversary : Feliz Aniversario!!  09.28.09 - 7:57pm
jenberry - infectious and inspiring   09.28.09 - 7:57pm
Rachel C. - Happy Anniversary Jasmine and JD! The photographs you and JD take and the moments yall capture are a great description of the relationship yall have: simply beauitful. I pray that God will bless you with many more happy years together!   09.28.09 - 6:31pm
Christina Gressianu - Happy Anniversary! And thank you for sharing it with us. It seems like so many marriages end - it's sooo good to hear about one that not only works but works happily!  09.28.09 - 5:46pm
Valerie Acosta - Cheee-sy. LOL. Just kidding. It was beautiful. Congratulations! - Valerie  09.28.09 - 5:21pm
Becka @Studio222 Photography - CUTE  09.28.09 - 5:15pm
Denise Saucedo - Wow Jasmine you sure do have a way with words and a way at tugging at one's heart. I am obsessed with the love that pours out of you and into your blog. I am enamored by your inner beauty. Happy Anniversary to you both. You are such a wonderful couple and deserve all the happiness in the world. Who would have thought the man you were in love with all those years ago is the man you are still obsessed with today. It's a one in a million kind of love. Enjoy yourselves. xo  09.28.09 - 5:15pm
Cynthia Q. - Happy anniversary lovebirds!  09.28.09 - 5:01pm
Katie Whitcomb - I love this shot! Congrats J* and JD you guys are such an inspiration to us all!  09.28.09 - 4:54pm
Amy Wenzel - I hope you guys have a wonderful day! Your love for each other is really inspiring.   09.28.09 - 4:44pm
Feuza - This is such a powerful piece you wrote Jas, I feel the love between you two all the way in the East Coast and I know God has such great things for the both of you. God Bless,  09.28.09 - 4:35pm
Dee - Happy Anniversary! :) This was such a sweet post!  09.28.09 - 4:32pm
OksanaJ. - Beautiful! Made me want to cry.  09.28.09 - 4:25pm
Mich Bilyeu - So so so precious!! I was hoping for a Jasmine and JD wedding picture to see how your wedding went down :)  09.28.09 - 4:24pm
Grace Kim - Hope you guys have been enjoying your anniversary week, and especially your anniversary day! Love is so beautiful, especially yours. xoxo  09.28.09 - 4:17pm
Nichole Williams - Awwww... How sweet : ) Happy Aniversary!  09.28.09 - 4:13pm
Simply Dashy Photography - Happy Anniversary Jasmine and JD! Wishing you both many more happy and loving years to come.  09.28.09 - 3:52pm
Megan - Just beautiful Jasmine! My anniv. was 4 days ago, also for 4 years, and you TOTALLY captured my feelings.. I love your words, I am thinking a tiny, tiny bit more than your photos. Which I thought was impossible!   09.28.09 - 3:50pm
Karen Slate - so sweet, so passionate and so real ... thanks for sharing and congratulations! I pray you will celebrate many, many more anniversaries with the happiest of memories.  09.28.09 - 3:46pm
Erica Young - Congratulations...Happy Anniversary!!!! Wishing you many more years of health, wealth and happiness :)  09.28.09 - 3:39pm
Angie - Happy Anniversary!!! *TEAR*  09.28.09 - 3:32pm
Jessica - HAPPY, HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!! You 2 are going to have the luckiest kiddos on the planet! Your post was so beautiful and inspiring. I've never been in love, but this raises the bar... and is a reminder that no one should settle for less than TRUE love. Thanks for sharing Jasmine!   09.28.09 - 3:20pm
natt - Congratulations Jasmine and JD. It's just wonderful and may you always feel this way =)  09.28.09 - 3:08pm
PUA - So beautifully written! Happy Anniverary!  09.28.09 - 2:34pm
Joan Solitario - P.S. what does the heart shaped Rock and the Lock stand for? Is it suppose to be symbolic or is this from a photo shoot?  09.28.09 - 1:47pm
Dave Ross Photography - Happy Anniversary, Jasmine and JD! May you have many, many more! - Dave  09.28.09 - 1:43pm
Trude - Happy anniversary to one helluva couple!!  09.28.09 - 1:29pm
Navy Sou - I wanna say, "Awwww" and "LMAO" all at the same time! Only you can make an obsession sound like it's! Happy Anniversary to you both!  09.28.09 - 1:25pm
Jenny - Happy Anniversary Jasmine ! Wish you have a work-free day today !   09.28.09 - 1:16pm
Erma and Maxim - J* and JD, Enjoy your special day! We wish you many, many, many more years of blissful married life! XOXO  09.28.09 - 1:08pm
Peyton Cooke - Your words left me in tears. I let my friends around me read it and they were awed as well! :) Great blog! Happy Anniversary!  09.28.09 - 12:26pm
Cathy Crawley - Aww that is so beautiful! Happy Anniversary Jasmine and JD!  09.28.09 - 12:24pm
Leyla N - Oh my... thank you for sharing that heartfelt, sensual & beautiful message of love with all of us... I could NOT help but tear up... I am a sucker for love stories, especially the happy kinds! Happy Anniversary to you guys both! You rock and although I don't know you personally, I feel like I do, and I gotta admit love you both already! Get your daily dose of inspiration here:  09.28.09 - 12:21pm
Kimberlee - Happy Anniversary!!! xoxo  09.28.09 - 12:14pm
Danielle - Happy Anniversary to a very special couple!  09.28.09 - 12:14pm
cassandra m - Not sure which is more beautiful...your story or your love. Hummmm...lets just say "your love story" is the most beautiful. HAPPY ANNIVERSARY J* & JD !!!  09.28.09 - 12:11pm
brooke bowland - gasp. you made my heart smile. enjoy your anni girl!  09.28.09 - 12:09pm
amanda thiessen - congratulations!! so heartfelt and beautiful! <3  09.28.09 - 11:49am
Events by Heather Ham - You should write a book. I'm serious. I mean, at least a book of poetry or something. You're words are just as beautiful and moving as your photographs. You are a true talent. And HAPPY ANNIVERSARY JAS & JD!!! Here's to 4,000 more!!!  09.28.09 - 11:48am
jean smith - wow, jasmine star...i shed a tear. yes, i did and it's because you have a passion about life, your hubby, photography, and even your dog that i have never seen before. happy anni and what a beautiful post. oh, and i am embarrassed to say, but i just posted a pic and a little shout out to jasmine on my blog from when i met you in michigan. ohhhh, i am such a nerd...  09.28.09 - 11:29am
Kimberly Loya - "Do you know what today's YOUR anniversary,,,you're anniversary..." Tony Toni Tone said it best :) Congrats on 4 years together- and TRUST me, with each year, with each trial, with each triumph it just gets better.   09.28.09 - 11:28am
Lana DenHarder - Happy Anniversary! We share the same date. We are celebrating 7 years today!  09.28.09 - 11:21am
Michael Fletcher - Those are such caring and lovely words you have written to and for your husband. Toni and I have been happily married for 15 years. I wish you and JD unending years of happiness together.  09.28.09 - 11:07am
Melissa Pfannenstiel - Happy Anniversary. Beautiful words and inspiring outlook on marriage!  09.28.09 - 11:00am
Nerinna - BEAUTIFUL!!! And happy anniversary to you both.  09.28.09 - 10:46am
Savannah - Oh man, I'm tearing up, I'm so happy for you two and i look forward to hopefully having this with someone someday. :)  09.28.09 - 10:35am
Holly - Happy Anniversary Jasmine and JD!!   09.28.09 - 10:31am
Lindsay Kay - Or better yet, best friends, lovers and soul mates for eternity. Even after death. You two are a beautiful couple! I learn so much from the stories you share. Thank you and Happy Anniversary!  09.28.09 - 10:26am
diane ( - Beautiful! Congratulations...what a gift you have gotten in such a wonderful husband, friend, lover.  09.28.09 - 10:20am
B - As I said at the reception toast, you are a better, brighter, and bigger person because of JdlT. Yet now I know the relationship has inverse capabilities because he is a better, brighter, and bigger person because of you. I love you both!  09.28.09 - 10:09am
Ashley - Happy anniversary you two! Hope you've had a relaxing anniversary week!  09.28.09 - 10:06am
lindsay Ernst - Ok, tears are flowing! That was beautiful, you both are very lucky to have each other :-) My husband and I call each other "love" as well :-) Happy Anniversary and many wonderful years to come!  09.28.09 - 9:58am
Adrienne Gunde - Such a beautifully-written post that had me tearing up by the end. Wishing you many more years of love and obsession to come!  09.28.09 - 9:54am
Jackie L. - Happy anniversary! May many more years bring you closer and may your love always flourish!  09.28.09 - 9:43am
krista Anderson - WHEW!!!!!! That is love!!!! Congratulations to you both!!! Much love, health and happiness!!  09.28.09 - 9:42am
Lacey - Beautiful writing. This makes me want to write my husband a love note today. Congrats to you and JD. God Bless Yall!   09.28.09 - 9:37am
Rensche van Dyk - Jasmin this is absolutely beautiful, you should write a romance novel. Happy Anniversary and may there be many forevers for you and JD.  09.28.09 - 9:35am
kelly beane - Congratulations guys! What a beautiful, special post!!  09.28.09 - 9:31am
smitten - wow. amazing words & how good it is to love so deeply! happy anniversary!  09.28.09 - 9:28am
Sarah K - WOW !! WOW !! WOW !!   09.28.09 - 9:28am
Ingrid - Congratulations! This is beautiful writing straight from the heart.  09.28.09 - 9:25am
ohana photographers - i never believed in "soul mates" before i met mine. it's so awesome to hear that you have found yours! may your life with jd continue to bring you happiness. happy happy anniversary j*  09.28.09 - 9:16am
Aimee - <3  09.28.09 - 9:15am
megan plenge - happy anniversary J* & JD!! i love this post and love that you shared it with all of us. i pray that i will find a love like yours someday! many blessings to you both.  09.28.09 - 9:14am
Christina - this amazes me with words unrefined. thank you Jasmine for letting me know it is still out there.   09.28.09 - 9:08am
johnna brynn - WOW! Happy Anniversary!  09.28.09 - 9:06am
Josh Ulmer - Congrats!!! My wife & I will share 5 years come this November!!! So great to see artists that are truly in love!!!!  09.28.09 - 9:04am
Katelyn James - Aw jasmine! Congratulations over and over! Isn't it great to be the example of high school sweethearts that were REAL soul mates! You two are the real deal and I love seeing how you love so deeply...its a testimony and it's awesome!   09.28.09 - 9:04am
Martha - Oh, and HAPPY 4th ANNIVERSARY!!! Here's to many, many more!   09.28.09 - 8:54am
Martha - Beautiful, heartfelt blog post!! I love how much you are in love with JD.   09.28.09 - 8:53am
Candice {The Beautiful Mess} - so sweet....  09.28.09 - 8:46am
Cynthia Utterback - Happy Anniversary Jasmine & JD. Rodney & I are coming up on our 21st Ann. & in the beginning I thought it would never be possible to love him any more than I did way back then... I was wrong. He is my heartbeat & we are very much still madly in love & passionatly obsessed. I truly enjoy reading about your passion for live, love, photography and one another. You are an inspiration to many! May God Bless you each and preserve your marriage to the very end of forever more.   09.28.09 - 8:46am
Jocelyn - How beautiful! Happy 4th anniversary!  09.28.09 - 8:43am
Lola - How special it is when you are in love, I know right! :) Good luck to both of you and I hope you will love each other forever!  09.28.09 - 8:33am
Nichanh Petersen - Has it been four years already. I remember the first time we met you and DJ was you both were sitting across from us at another table before your 1 years session at Brooks. Congratulations!!!!!  09.28.09 - 8:28am
Erica Garza - Happy Anniversary. May your love grow stronger and stronger each day even as your bones start to ache - may your heart always ache for one another :)  09.28.09 - 8:21am
Jo-Anne Kyle - Awww - that was so heartfelt and beautifully written. Happy Anniversary!!  09.28.09 - 8:18am
Tiffany - ahh reading this made my eyes water! Happy 4 year anniversary! I love how much you love special!  09.28.09 - 8:03am
Rosalie - Happy Anniversary :) Jasmine I've been following your blog through my wedding planning and now a month after the big day yours is one blog I won't be unsubscribing from. You don't just share your beautiful photographs but your personal blog stories, like this one, are wonderful, honest and beautifully written. Thank you  09.28.09 - 7:54am
Emily Abril - Beautiful! nuff said!  09.28.09 - 7:45am
Nicole Haley - Congratulations and happy anniversary to you both! My husband and I are high school sweethearts and this brought back funny memories of our parents' doubts! It's all so funny now!   09.28.09 - 7:38am
Whitney - Jasmine this was just wonderful! Happy anniversary, and I can only pray to find someone as perfect for me someday as JD is for you.   09.28.09 - 7:36am
Allison Marshall - Happy Anniversary! May you grow deeper and deeper in love every day!  09.28.09 - 7:34am
jamie delaine - love is splendid. beautiful writing, jas.  09.28.09 - 7:31am
Stephanie Rose - Awe...I'm very happy for you two! Absolutely adorable. :D  09.28.09 - 7:27am
kimbrali - i hope you still have that book and so happy to know that love like this really does exist. happy anniversary.  09.28.09 - 7:24am
Tara Templeton - **sigh** So beautifully put! I think you are very lucky to have each other! Happy Anniversary!  09.28.09 - 7:22am
Bobbie Brown - Happy Anniversary! This post gave me chill bumps!   09.28.09 - 7:18am
Diandra - Happy Anniversary! Hope you have a WONDERFUL day together! You give me hope that great love stories still exist... the ones that are imperfect but so full of love! xoxo  09.28.09 - 7:17am
Jennifer - Happy Anniversary!! My husband and I are celebrating our 7th Anniversary today as well!! 9/28 is a wonderful day....  09.28.09 - 7:14am
denise karis - holy hell that was a hot love letter! Happy Anniversary, Lovelies!  09.28.09 - 7:13am
Otto Rascon - Happy anniversary guys!!!  09.28.09 - 7:13am
joan solitario - i think i need that book too! i'm totally obsessed with my husband ;o). Happy Anniversary to you and JD!  09.28.09 - 7:07am
Niecey - Ack, inlaws. They mean well. This was beautiful. You seem to have direct access to my tear glands. I'm not the type to cry a lot, but your posts always make my eyes sparkle with moisture. You two are a beautiful couple. Inside and out. I'm glad God brought you together. It seems He knew what He was doing.   09.28.09 - 7:03am
Christine - Wow. I absolutely love your writing. Congratulations to you and JD! Hope your anniversary celebrations this weekend went well!  09.28.09 - 7:03am
Alexandra - Aww :) So cute!  09.28.09 - 7:01am
Emily - Seriously, I wish I were you guys! Your sooo adorable! Congratulations!  09.28.09 - 6:58am
Jo LeFlufy - Happy Anniversary! Happy Anniversary! Happy Anniversary! Haaaaaaaaappy Annniversary!  09.28.09 - 6:58am
MegganB - goosebumps... you need to write a book too. happy anniversary!  09.28.09 - 6:57am
Regina White - Very beautiful. Happy Anniversary!   09.28.09 - 6:56am
Chrystal - Awww, Happy Anniversary to you both. It is such a joy to see and feel such real love!! Because we can all see it in your smiles and I think we can feel it in every post... you are both very, very lucky to have each other.  09.28.09 - 6:54am
min - too sweet and always left me feeling too inspired :) Happy Anniversary to you and the lovely JD....  09.28.09 - 6:52am
doreen - Very sweet - Happy Anniversary!  09.28.09 - 6:49am
Kelly Brown - so sweet! happy anniversary!   09.28.09 - 6:45am
Tasha Prescott - SO beautiful! Happy Anniversary JD and Jasmine! Many more!   09.28.09 - 6:43am
lyndsay hyatt-almeida - HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to both of you!!   09.28.09 - 6:40am
TH - Happy Anniversary to you and JD! You know, sometimes I wonder, if it is your pictures that make me keep waiting for your blog entries or do your personal posts? xoxo  09.28.09 - 6:36am
Heather K. - Happy Anniversary!   09.28.09 - 6:35am
Megan - This post is so beautiful, happy anniversary!  09.28.09 - 6:34am
Karen (Mikols) Bonar - Happy Anniversary! Yours is one day after E and I .... easy to remember! :)  09.28.09 - 6:32am
kim james - Very sweet share and I felt it which means the writing is good and getting better. It makes me want to read more. That coming from a person who will drop a book if it loses my interest.Thanks.  09.28.09 - 6:28am
Stephanie Stewart - Happy Anniversary, you two love birds! Beautiful post! I'm going to go hug my hubby now too...  09.28.09 - 6:27am
Tira J - Happy Anniversary you two! May God continue to bless your love for one another.   09.28.09 - 6:25am
Celesa - Happy Anniversary!  09.28.09 - 6:18am
Julie Massie - Happy Anniversary Jasmine and JD! This post is *SO* beautifully written, and I am always inspired by the love that you two high-school-sweethearts have for each other. You make me want to go hug my husband. God bless you both!  09.28.09 - 6:10am